Soo I guess I'm here to talk about myself? Or is this like the introduction of my life? Well, however you see me is what your gonna get. Don't like it? I don't really give a shit. I'm not here to please anyone. I do what makes me happy. END OF STORY! (:
fuck ittt.. ;D
Soo I have some mixed emotions right now. Me and my mom made up and everything is squared away. We had a heart to heart convo and cried together. Even tho things are good between us. I still committed to moving back to Vegas. I feel sad now that I’m really moving back. Because I’m leaving my family and friends behind. /: I’ll start a new life there I suppose. I guess things will be good. Just overwhelmed with emotion I guess.
Seriously. WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS LIFE??? No matter what I do or try to succeed in this journey we call life, I always seem to be up one minute and crash hard the next. When can I catch a break?
I’m moving back to Vegas because my so called mother and I got into a fight over ten dollars.. She took it way to far. I mean who the fuck is the parent here? Yet she says I embarrassed her and talked shit on her. Whatever I’m really not going to ramble on and on over the things we threw in each others faces. What hurts me the most, is she said the only reason I was moving back is because I was sucking in school. Really? That’s why I made the presidents list? I’ve passed six classes already. Four A’s one B and one C.
Gosh I just don’t understand the kind of person she is.
Its just so sad how I tried my hardest here. To try and better my life and she can’t help me for one year while i get my life straight. My brothers will go months on end without speaking a word to her and I still get treated like shit. And have things thrown in my face.
I love my mom. I really do. When will we speak again? When I grow up and apologize to her. Fuck that. I have nothing to be sorry for.
She needs to realize she treats me different compared to my other siblings. I honestly moved back to Arizona so she could be close to atleast one of us. But I guess she likes it better when she has no contact with her children.
Sad thing is the ONLY family support I have here is my dads family.
None of my brothers or sister in laws have once asked me how I was holding up in all of this.
How am I holding up? I’m not. I’m a fucking wreck. ); it’s going to cost me a fucking fortune when I go back to school. My stress level is officially at its max. I just don’t know what to do.
Good thing about moving back to Vegas is I already have a good paying job lined up. Still doesn’t replace my friends or my little brother that live here in Arizona. );
Things are pretty fucking shitty. Wish I could just crawl in a hole right now with my puppy and stay there forever.
